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Sunday, November 12, 2006

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 20:46:31 GMT

i may not have known your favorite color
or your exact grades in school
or anyone's name in your family
but let me tell you...
i did know the exact way you walked
the way you carried yourself
and how your eyes sparkled in just right light

You know those suicide stories
where everyone jumps off a building to kill themselves?
People do that to see who comes running up those 20
flights of stairs to save them; to stop them from jumping.
It's sad that the unfortunate few who do actually jump
have no one coming to their rescue.

& now is when you start to realize who really matters, who ~~never~~ did, & who always will. <3

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 01:19:15 GMT

i love you and always will no matter whats in the way of that.

Everything is always okay in the end. if it's not okay, than it is not the end.

There's always going to be the one person that can make you smile no matter what kind of mood you're in.

You only find a few people in this world,
a few people who will tell you they love you
& mean it with all their heart.
Don't forget those people who stood
by you through it all, the special few that
were there for you till the end.

i'm reading your note over again,
there's not a word that i comprehend,
except when you signed it:
"i'll love you always, and forever"

when someone is born, someone dies.
someone laughs, someone cries.
if you love someone, let them know
cause if they leave tomorrow, they will never know.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 15:32:28 GMT

every night she finds herself lying in her bed,
remembering every little glance, and every little thing he said to her.

all i want to do is be able to look at you
[&] not feel the pain of the memories of the
times i once knew.

I couldnt tell you
why we are best friends,
because you wouldnt understand.
The explanation is full of too
many inside jokes and made up
words. It's full of too much care and
too many tears, too many laughs,
and too many blonde moments.
I dont think I will ever
be able to give you a better
reason except,
She's always been there.

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 22:05:14 GMT

its been a few days... but here ya go...

this also applies to theatre kids!

I am who I am.
Your approval
isn't required. =)

Today is just one of those days where everything
I did reminded me of you, every song I heard
somehow related to you...I hate days like today
because they remind me of the one thing I don't have.

Me && you will always be best friends
nothing can change that
and if you ever need me
remember that I'm just a phone call away

she always loved to help other people
fix their mistakes, but she never seemed
to be able to fix her own

You want to know why I love you?
It's because you loved me
when I didn't love myself.
It's because you held up my beauty for me to see.
It's because you cared unconditionally,
just the way I was.
It was because, for the first time in my life
I didn't have to work so hard at being happy.
Because with you, it just happens.

BYES LOVIES

Saturday, July 29, 2006

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 01:24:10 GMT

okay so today i was in survey mood... maybe some icons later tough...

Rules:
-dont change your myspace top 5
-fill the people in below
-answer the questions truthfully

Number 1: lucas

Number 2: maggie

Number 3: hannah

Number 4: abby

Number 5: chris

Have you ever done anything illegal with 4?
haha yes i have

Have you ever loved 5?
In a friendly way

Have you ever thought about kissing 1?
well only while in the process of it... lol... spin the bottle

Have you ever danced with 5?
nuh uh

Have you ever hugged number 2?
lots and lots

Have you ever been drunk/high with 1?
nope i dont do that stuff

Has 5 been to your house?
nope

Have you ever had an inside joke with 2?
bunches

Has any of your top 5 ever seen you naked?
lol... yeah... not recently though... like along time ago...

Have you ever had a crush on 3?
No

Have you ever gone shopping with 2?
umm yes? we were in the mall but all we got was japennse food and starbucks... lol

Have you ever seen 4 in a swimsuit?
yeppers

Have you ever done anything with 2?
not in the sexual manner if thats what you mean, but other wise well yeah...

Have you ever ridden in a car with 3?
Yes lots of times

Have you ever traveled anywhere with 1?
umm a few times, not like far away though...

Have you met 4's family?
yeps

Have you ever hated 4?
no, i've been mad and disagreed w/ her many times but never hated

Have you ever fought with number 2?
gosh yes, but not a "fist fight" i would kill her!

Have you ever seen 3 do something embarassing?
all i have to say is panda butt....

Has 2 ever given you a present?
nope its always the other way around... lol

Have you ever seen anyone in your top 5 cry?
most of them

Has anyone in your top 5 seen you cry?
1-4

Have you ever played on a sports team with anyone on ur top 5?
does theatre count?

Have you ever done something dangerous with number 4?
umm yeah

Has 5 ever called you?
prob. to see when we had a rehersal or something

Have you ever slept in the same bed w/ anyone in your top 5?
yes

BYES LOVIES

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Tue, 25 Jul 2006 02:57:03 GMT

go fuck yourselves all of you (well most of you)!!! *please excuse the lan. but i am not in a good mood*

(margaret the icon i was talking about in that message is in the entry b4 this one)

what happened?! can you please tell me?

BYES LOVIES...

sometimes i wish you
hated me. i really do
maybe then i wouldn't
have to sit there everyday
being your best friend
and know that i
coulnd't have you

its weird walking past those
people that used to be your
best friends, feeling like
you hardly even know them

I'm definately not flawless;
I trip over air;
I get sugar high all the time;
I never do what everyone else is doing;
My room's a mess;
& I am annoying and i dont care;

But those little flaws,
are what makes me.
&& they're never going to change

-Remember that game telephone where one person
would say one thing and by the end it would be
something totally different. Welcome to high school.

-Sometimes you just gotta be weird.
Go against the crowd and act stupid.
Laugh till you cry and cry till you can't
feel the pain. Don't listen to what
other people say. You know you're
being yourself and that's all that counts.
Don't worry what they will think about
you.Your true friends will stay by you.
So just be yourself.

Many people have told me I’ve changed,
but the truth is I’ve finally become myself.

Remember when truth or dare
Consisted of eating bugs,
& the only holding hands you did
Was with your friends
When “getting some” meant
Stealing the cookie jar
& boys didn’t matter
[cause they had cooties]
Yea those were the days..

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Wed, 19 Jul 2006 04:03:05 GMT

lol!

You don't get it do you?
You really don't understand
that i'm not over you.
I was never over you.
The girl who's normally so strong
is fallng apart, and you're not even realizing it

You know, I saw you today, just when I thought
I was beginning to forget you. The instant that I saw you,
I got nervous, my stomach began to turn, & I almost started
crying & as much as I didn't want to look at you,
I couldn't take my eyes off you

friends are the railings
on a staircase --
the support you
need when you are
[ F A L L I N G ]

if i promise not to cry, can you do me a favor ? for the first time in your life, look me in the eyes and tell me exactly how you feel.

Just because her eyes don't tear doesn't mean that
her heart doesn't cry && just because she comes
off strong doesn't mean there is nothing wrong.

Monday, July 17, 2006

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 01:14:43 GMT

credit to... JEadoreICONS, Ic0nS_Fr0m_ME,

!!!

My friends ask me, "Do you like him?"
I just look at them & say, "Pshh; do I like
him... are you crazy? No!" And as I walk away,
I silently whisper to myself, "I don't like him... I love him." *this one makes me think and worry about someone, she knows who she is....*

if i promise not to cry, can you do me a favor ? for the first time in your life, look me in the eyes and tell me exactly how you feel

She's the girl everybody comes to with their problems.
She always has the answers,
but what happens when she can't use her own advice *oh holy crap guess who i thought about when i read this one? guess? me? yep? damn you're good... no? its just obvious that i am killing myself helping others?, but i love them so damn much... and would rather put everybody b4 myself...

never let someone else create you
because once they do,
they can destroy you

Promise me,
that's all I want.
Just a promise that you will never forget me.
Tell me I changed you somehow.
Let me know that I had an impact on your life.
Promise me that you will always remember me.
Losing you was hard enough,
but I don't want to live knowing I meant absolutely
n o t h i n g
to you

Friday, July 07, 2006

Fri, 07 Jul 2006 23:33:00 GMT

all i have to say is... Grandma's bra and Grandpa's overalls come out of Jacob's ladder...

lol... haha well its a little string trick my mommy was teahing me to do all over again... (this was how i occupid my time as a small child) i just learned the tea cup and jacob's ladder and i asked how to do Grandpa's overalls and Grandma's bra... then my Mom said.. "Well Grandma's bra and Grandpa's overalls come out of Jacob's ladder..." oh well umm ok mom... The person that has a Jacob's ladder must be into old people, men, and women...

haha if you dont find this funny then something is wrong w/ you... lol...

all for now...

icons and quotes:

LATER!!!

LOVE YALL

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Sun, 02 Jul 2006 21:44:17 GMT

nothing much to say but enjoy...

icons and quotes:

0n My First Day 0f Kindergarden,
My Teacher Showed Me a Picture 0f a Apple
&& Two 0ranges, And Asked Me To Pick 0ut
The 0ne That Didnt Belong., The First Thing
They Taught Me Was Being Different is Wrong
But Really, iTS N0T <3

Best Friends Are The 0nes
That Can Call You a Bitch
0r a Slut, && Maybe Even a Whore
But You Can Just Look At Them
And Start Laughing <3

LiFE iS A MiXTURE 0F --
Sunshine 'N Rain
Laughter 'N Pleasure
Tear Drops 'N Pain
So When The Clouds Hide The Sun
&&`Your Skies Are Grey,
Remember -- i'm 0nly a Phone call Away.

The 0ther Day Someone Came Uhp And Asked Me
if i Had a Gun && Had To Shoot Either My Boyfriend
0r My Best Friend,. Who Would i Shoot. And i Said
"i'd Shoot Myself, Because i'd Take a Bullet And
Die For All The People i Love"